And we pray and we pray...
I still struggle with things sometimes. It gets hard not to give in.
It's a test. It is also an opportunity to either mess up or to say no and say, "Here God, I am doing this for you.."
Even if we do mess up, how do we react to it? Do we take that and use it for something good? We can grow from our mistakes. We make mistakes so that we grow and develop into better people. Or do we beat ourselves up about it and not use it..is it just something we did...do we even think about what we can get from it?
God has this all planned out for us. He knows how things work. If we mess up, we have the opportunity to learn from it.
We always pray for strength. And you know, sometimes..I don't feel like I have as much as I do other times. But it came to me. God is our strength. And if He is in our hearts..we have that strength. It is there.
But, do we acknowledge it being there? Do we take a hold of it and use it? Or do we forget? We always have strength to get through things...tell help us say no, or whatever it is that we really need.
God knows us.
Psalm 139
1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
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